Live for now 

There are many things in my life that have led me to the place that I am. I’m not sure if I can say with the upmost certainty that there was one defining moment that seemingly changed everything and pushed me to move abroad… however there was a moment in my life that did cause me to reflect on my life and question is this the life that I want to be living? And in that moment I realized that the one true thing I wanted from my life was happiness and the way I was going to get that was by living in the moment and living for now. So with that I decided to pick up and move abroad… and boy could I not be happier with that decision. Although this change came from grief and sadness, I know that it was the best thing I could have taken out of that situation. 

So now I’m gonna get deep and real and personal (and things are not gonna be happy here… ) but that’s life… It can be so so beautiful and magical and filled with so much good sometimes but I guess there needs to be some balance to that. So on the other hand there are times when life can be messy, dark ,and heartbreaking, and just so sad. So for me to get to the good and the beauty and to see what this world had to offer me I had to go through some dark and messy times.

Life is unexpected and overwhelming. Some people struggle with it. Unfortunately that was the case with one of my friends. My senior year of college one of my good friends committed suicide and this completely upended my world. This is something that I still struggle to grasp, however, it has also taught me a lot about life and has led me to think more seriously about life. 

I have learned to not only treasure life more but also to treasure the people in my life more. This tragic event of losing a close friend is one of the things that pushed me to follow this opportunity and live abroad. 

I learned two valuable lessons from this… Firstly life is waaaaay too short so it is very important to sieze every opportunity and chance that are presented to you. There is no need to wait for the right moment or opportunity to present itself to you …. You can go out there and make it happen. Secondly you never know what tomorrow will bring. For me personally the pursuit of my happiness is what’s most important to me. Life is too short and too wonderful to be unhappy in what you’re doing . 

I miss my friend every day, not a single day has gone by where I haven’t thought about her. Although her death was sad and tragic I try and take something positive away from this and always treasure our friendship. I try and make the most of mylife and my happiness. Live for now and live in the moment .. You never know what tomorrow will bring.