I have officially been living abroad for a year and a half (and 3 days). This is crazy. In the beginning of this “journey” I didn’t think I would make it through the first month, let alone a whole year…. and now here I am in my second year. And thinking about doing a third…. I don’t know what comes next for me in my life, but what I’ve learned most of all this last year is I can handle whatever life throws at me.
Honestly, not to sound cheesy or like a greeting card or totally cliche or anything HOWEVER, I can honestly say that moving abroad was one of the best decisions I have made in my life. Looking back I do not for one second regret anything about moving here or doubt this decision. Buying that one way ticket, getting on a plane, and not looking back was what I needed to do. I know that this is where I am meant to be right now, and I can say that clearly without a single doubt in my mind. I have grown in so many ways that I never imagined I could, and it has happened so quickly.
Now don’t get me wrong, while moving abroad was most certainly my best life choice, it was also my most difficult one. Leaving everything behind is just as easy as it is difficult. Although I know in my heart that this is the best for me, the right place for me, there are moments when I would give anything for the “normalcy” of home. The exciting parts of living abroad can also be the most exhausting ones, especially on days where you are feeling down. Some moments I long for the familiarity (which on the other hand I sometimes refer to as the “boringness” of home.)
But these moments are few and fleeting and at the end of the day, Barcelona truly is home.
I have learned more about myself in this past year and a half than I could have in 5 or even 10 years living back in the US. The things that I have to do for myself, the positions I have been in I could have never imagined I would be capable of doing for myself, or handling these difficult situations, but here I am.
The main reason I moved here in the first place was because I had no clue what I wanted to do with my life, and really I just had to get my shit together. I felt such uncertainty of my life, and I felt that this uncertainty was a bad thing. And while I still have sooooo much uncertainty when it comes to my life, living here has truly taught me, hey that uncertainty is okay, normal, and nothing to stress about. I’ve also learned that, even though I’m an “adult” I’m only 23 years old, and that’s still pretty young (according to everyone who tells me “you’re only 23, you have your whole life ahead of you”) and I still have time to figure it out, make mistakes and just enjoy life.
Who knows what comes next, who knows what tomorrow holds, the best thing to do is just enjoy this moment that you have right now. Living abroad has truly taught me to just LITM (live in the moment) and disfrutar la vida. I’m excited to see what comes next, but for now i’ll keep on enjoying.
“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines, sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.” -Mark Twain