Late night thoughts 

when I think about the future I am filled with both fear and excitement…. There are just so many possibilities. I am so used to having my life clearly planned out for me… Or being able to see some sort of path into the future. But now I quite honestly have no clue. I feel like I’m aimlessly wandering through a forest in search of a path… But I don’t think it’s bad, I think places like this are where we learn the most. Not just about ourselves but also this great big magical world we live in. 

I am both afraid and excited for all the potential possibilities my future holds for me. New friends, new countries, new experiences. It won’t all be good but it’ll be things that will stay with me forever.

The thing that scares me the most, I think, is returning home. I love spain, I love barcelona, this place feels more like home to me than anyplace has before. I don’t know what the adjustment back to America will be like. But to be honest, right now I can’t even imagine living there. America will always be home  to me deep down… But right now it just doesn’t feel like it.

I don’t know what comes next or where I belong, but I’m learning that not knowing is okay. This is the time to embrace the future and the uncertainty with open arms, to know that I am strong enough to handle what’s coming. And eventually I will find my future. 


7 thoughts on “Late night thoughts 

  1. This is exactly how I’m feeling! I am terrified of leaving Barcelona, because I’m scared I won’t be able to adjust back to the States after being in paradise for a semester 😦

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  2. Not knowing is something that I am always trying to learn. I used to be a person that needed everything scheduled out and then I moved to Australia and each day is a struggle to remind myself to relax and not worry about the future. I’m in the same boat as you. Australia is my home. America almost seems foreign to me. Of course that is where my family and friends are, but I have no urge to go back. If given the opportunity I would stay in Australia without thinking twice. And no one back home understands that either, which I’m sure you can relate to! I feel like as people who love to travel, we will constantly be in a place unknown, but searching for a home.

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