we must take adventures in order to know where we truly belong
This quote hits so close to heart for me right now. The exact essence of this journey I’m on right now now. I don’t know my place in this world exactly, but I feel as if I am slowly headed towards the path to whatever my destination might be, at least more so than the point I was at a year ago.
It’s weird but a part of me feels like Barcelona, Spain, this wonderful place feels exactly like home to me … truly.. Which is crazy and mind blowing since I’ve only been here for 9 months. It causes me to think 10 million different thoughts at the same time. All of which completely overwhelm me, scare me and thrill me
- is this really where I should be right now?
- should i get a “real” job ?
- when should i move back to america?
- is america even the right place for me to live?
- if i move bad to america should i live in new york?
- should i try a new city in america?
- should I try the west coast?
- should i stay in Barcelona or should i move somewhere else?
- another city in europe?
- another city in spain?
All these questions and more constantly circle through my mind ..There’s so much I miss about home, but so much that I love about living here. But i still have so much curiosity for this world. There’s so much more I want to see and experience and explore. I just never want to settle for anything.
It’s scary… all my life i’ve had some sort of direction, some sort of guidance but now I guess it’s 100% unto me. It’s always been a clear path, and no I feel as if I’ve reached a fork at which there are an infinite number of different paths to take… all of which can have a great ending.
**disclaimer** Lately I’ve been thinking a lot about the future so that’s why most of my posts have been along the same topic and less about my actual travels and about my experiences. It’s heading towards the point where I actually need to face the impending future and deal with making a decision about what will actually come next for me. This is something that scares the crap out of me. But writing out all the craziness going on in my head right now helps.