the journey. the questions.

we must take adventures in order to know where we truly belong

This quote hits so close to heart for me right now. The exact essence of this journey I’m on right now now. I don’t know my place in this world exactly, but I feel as if I am slowly headed towards the path to whatever my destination might be, at least more so than the point I was at a year ago.

It’s weird but a part of me feels like Barcelona, Spain, this wonderful place feels exactly like home to me … truly.. Which is crazy and mind blowing since I’ve only been here for 9 months. It causes me to think 10 million different thoughts at the same time. All of which completely overwhelm me, scare me and thrill me

  • is this really where I should be right now?
  • should i get a “real” job ?
  • when should i move back to america?
  • is america even the right place for me to live?
  • if i move bad to america should i live in new york?
  • should i try a new city in america?
  • should I try the west coast?
  • should i stay in Barcelona or should i move somewhere else?
  • another city in europe?
  • another city in spain?

All these questions and more constantly circle through my mind ..There’s so much I miss about home, but so much that I love about living here. But i still have so much curiosity for this world. There’s so much more I want to see and experience and explore. I just never want to settle for anything.

It’s scary… all my life i’ve had some sort of direction, some sort of guidance but now I guess it’s 100% unto me. It’s always been a clear path, and no I feel as if I’ve reached a fork at which there are an infinite number of different paths to take… all of which can have a great ending.

 **disclaimer** Lately I’ve been thinking a lot about the future so that’s why most of my posts have been along the same topic and less about my actual travels and about my experiences. It’s heading towards the point where I actually need to face the impending future and deal with making a decision about what will actually come next for me. This is something that scares the crap out of me. But writing out all the craziness going on in my head right now helps.


12 thoughts on “the journey. the questions.

  1. Barcelona is beautiful and I know when I was there I found myself feeling lat home as well. Traveling is such a great way to explore the world, but sometimes can leave you feeling a mix of emotions and questioning where you want to go, live, start a career. I would say, perhaps taking on the idea as traveling being a hobby that does not have to go away even if you “settle down” into a job or country. It can be a part of you that never leaves so don’t think of it as traveling OR moving back to America, but seeking your path alongside your vacations instead 🙂 hope that helps!

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    1. I’m working here in Barcelona.. I fell in love with the city when I came here to study abroad. After graduating University I couldn’t imagine living anywhere but Barcelona.. and now here I am. I’m going to try and write a blog post explaining all this!

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  2. Sometimes it’s really hard to make the right decision. How long should you wait to make it? Should you be impetuous or steady? I have no answers. Some of the best decisions about moving to a foreign country were made on the spur of the moment. And when I returned to the States, I hated it. And I would have left if I had had the money. But then something miraculous happened. Because I stayed I got the job I wanted and fell in love. But it took time. Time that honestly if I had known it would take..I would not have waited. Good luck with your decision. Know that you will know when you are ready.!

    Thank you for the blog follow too 🙂

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  3. Hi Sam

    As a youngster in his late 50s, especially one who has lived in places both good and bad over the decades, seems an easy one to me. Live where you feel most alive and content in yourself.

    If that is Barcelona right now then sounds good to me and, having been there myself, I can understand why. If that feeling fades or you get restless, then time to look for the next exciting chapter in your young life.

    Just stay safe along the way which I’m sure you will:-)

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    1. Hey Ian! It’s always nice to hear from someone who has lived all over the place and has enjoyed every minute of it. Your words are reassuring to me to know I am in the right place right now. It’s just important for me to keep in mind that my happiness is most important and I can change my location if I’m not happy! Look forward to hearing more about you and your journeys!


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