How do you deal with unsupportive people in your life? How do you deal when you feel like someone is blocking your path? How do you deal with the people who get in the way of your hopes, your dreams, your goals and ambitions?
How do you deal when one of those people is a parent?
This move to Colombia to go live with my boyfriend is by no means the easiest thing I’ve done (if you’ve followed some of my recent blog posts I’m sure you are aware). But this decision is something I am 100% certain of, and while I have some small fears and small doubts I am still certain.
One of the things that was most frightening to me about this whole process, was not the decision of moving itself, actually it was telling my mom about my decision to go live with my boyfriend in Colombia. Now don’t get me wrong, I love my mom, she’s super supportive and encouraging. But we butt heads a lot, we’re super similar and as a result we tend to clash on occasion (okay maybe more than I would like to actually admit).
When I first told her about my move, she took it surprisingly well… (maybe that should have been my first warning ). She said, “while I’m upset you’re going off again, I get it. I get why you have to go”. She met my boyfriend, she loved him..Everything was great. All the cards seemed to be falling into place.
But now there’s been a sudden surplus of “road blocks”, things suddenly happening and getting in my way (seemingly out of nowhere) and making it more of a struggle for me to leave for Colombia… and this sudden surplus makes me think, maybe it’s not in fact a coincidence.
The thing is I’ve been trying to go to Colombia for almost a month at this point, my mom asked me to stay home for Thanksgiving, being that I haven’t been home for the past 2. So obviously I said of course, realizing that I’ve missed this important family holiday the past two years I knew that this year of course I should stay. So I did. And then the plan was to leave soon after… or so I thought. And each day there are more and more obstacles in my way.
Now each day I keep trying to go to buy my ticket, and every single day she has a reason for me not to do it, asking me to take care of “just one more thing” before. Always silly and always resulting in an argument. The longer I wait, the more expensive the ticket gets, and the more frustrated I become. And right now really I’m at a catch 22, I don’t want to go behind her back and purchase a ticket and say “well hell I’m doing it anyway”, but at the same time I can’t wait forever… I need to go to Colombia and start my life there.
I really don’t know what to do in this situation, I almost feel as if I’m fighting a losing battle..