Today I’ve been spending a lot more time than usual reflecting on life….
I feel as if all my recent blog posts have been about all the crazy things spinning round and round in circles in my head. But sometimes that’s part of living abroad, just because you’re living in a different country, in a different place doesn’t mean your life stops.
As I’ve mentioned before briefly, about two and a half years ago a close friend of mine died, and as today would have been her birthday I’ve been thinking about her a lot. (Live for now ). I’m thinking about the friendship we had, the memories we shared and how lucky I am to have gotten to meet her. I’m thinking about the things she taught me both in her life and in her death.
I know that I will never forget her, and always I will carry her with me.
I truly know she’s the inspiration behind my move abroad. Her death changed me. But it also pushed me to follow my dreams, to seek adventure, to seek happiness and to move here to Spain. It inspired me to just go and do, to make the most of my life because truly life is too short not to.
The thing is, my friend, she committed suicide. She was struggling so much with the life she was living for her death seemed better than life. I’ve struggled with depression and anxiety throughout my entire life, and for me this was in a way a wake up call. I wanted more from my life, I didn’t want to just pass through life… I wanted to live my life. I wanted to enjoy every second of my life.
I wanted to go new places, meet new people, live my life.
And so that’s exactly what I’m doing, living my life.. exploring, enjoying, pushing the boundaries, going outside of my comfort zone. All because of her. I will always keep her with me, always keep the memories we’ve shared, and always be grateful to her for inspiring me to do this. to be here.
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