**disclaimer… ahead is a somewhat (okay maybe very much so) political post… slightly different than my usual posts but filled with feelings & emotions… if you prefer to read something more about my life lately ( Life in Colombia! ) …
I don’t like to get political on this blog, I don’t like to bring that here, but it’s in times like this that I just need to talk about this (after all in this blog I like to just write about what’s on my mind.. although sometimes it comes out more like word vomit…) . I wrote a post right after the election just happened (Love trumps hate. ) because I was just shocked and at a loss for words. And here I am again, still stunned and still at a loss for words.
In less than 12 hours this man will take the position of President of the United States, something I never believed could actually happen. Now the moment is here, and it’s actually happening, yet it’s still hard to believe.
He will gain all this power… and for this I am afraid. I am afraid of what will happen to my country, I am afraid of what will happen to the rights and the freedoms that we have gained, I am afraid for the future. Yet I try to remain hopeful.
I don’t know what he will do to my country, I am hoping he will do what is best, I am trying to be optimistic that things that will be okay. I am not trying to think the worst, I hope that this man will prove us all wrong, that some great change will happen and he won’t act the way his past actions suggest.
But instead of spending all this negative energy thinking the worst, I’m trying to think the best. I am trying to focus in ways that I can better myself, and help better my country (even from afar). Because after all isn’t that what’s most important, and what’s most powerful.
I am grateful, even though I am unhappy with the man that has won this election, I am grateful that we have the right to choose who is the leader of our government, grateful that everyone has the right to have a voice and choice in these matters (even if the outcome is not what we want). Because although these next 4 years we have this man, the following 4 years are again ours to choose. And for that, as Americans, we are lucky.
It is both harder and easier being far away on the eve of this event. It’s harder because I feel helpless and disconnected from the things occurring at home. It’s easier because I’m disconnected and I know that residing in a foreign country I am in some ways “safer” from any changes that may come. It’s harder because of some of the questions I face, from people who are not from America who can hardly believe this man is becoming president. People who question me “how did this happen” to which I can hardly find the right words to respond. Easier because I know I have a voice, I know I can express myself.
I must admit I am sad to see the Obamas & Bidens leave the White House. Not just because I agree with their policies, but because of who they are as people. I feel this genuine goodness radiating off of them, they set such a good example both for Americans and for the rest of the world. While I’m sad to see them go, I’m glad for the legacy they are leaving behind. The inspiration that these families have set for me personally and certainly for many others in the country.
Tomorrow will be the day to show to the world how great America is, how much love we have for each other and our country. Although I am sad and tentative for the days that are coming, I am proud to be an American… today and every day. No matter what country I reside in.. America is always in my heart.
All I know is that tomorrow is a new day and I must keep looking forward… the world is not ending, one foot in front of the other. I must spread love, spread happiness and spread kindness, in any and every way I can…. because in the end all we have is each other.